I’ve spent years learning to listen to my body and eat in a way that is satisfying to me and fuels my life. It’s been a slow progression for me, though I’ve felt in a rut with it for a good long while, but I’ve had a breakthrough that I think is worth sharing:
Finding a physical activity that I really love has made eating well really easy all of a sudden, because I want to have the feel good enough and have the stamina to bike. Maybe I had it backwards before. I was waiting to feel better (meaning less under siege from IBS symptoms) to add some more physical activity in my life. I would try and try and I just couldn’t get there. Perhaps it is just hard to do nice things for yourself (like eat well) when you’re frustrated from not really living life.
What do I mean by eating well? I simply mean eating in a way that is healthy for me, is satisfying and doesn’t trigger the IBS monster. It has meant no longer force-feeding myself the vegetables that make me sick and eating more fruit that doesn’t make me sick. It has meant not being afraid to drink a 7-Up, if my tummy is acting up, even if the old eating disordered troll in my head wants to complain about the calories (“You eat so much sweet stuff already! Do you really have to drink this stuff that doesn’t taste that great to you yet still has calories, but will make you feel hugely better when you’re having a nauseous day?!?”). It means I eat cookies when I want to, but it is intuitive not to go overboard on them, because I won’t be able to go out and play if I do, because I’ll be too sick. This morning it meant carrot cake and tea for breakfast. I am finding more ways to get protein in my diet (I am mostly vegetarian and married to a man allergic to soy/nuts, so this gets complicated).
My digestive system approves. My IBS has flared up a little here and there, but not nearly as often as it has in the last five years – about once week now compared to three or four times a week before. I feel so much better and I’m having fun. Yay HAES and Fatosphere for helping to make this possible.