Thanks to welshwmn3 who commented so wisely in my Stalking, Harrassment & Other Assorted Abuse post, I am here affirming that I AM WORTH IT!!
I think this topic deserves it’s own post, so here it is!
From welshwmn3:
Just one thing: YOU are worth doing whatever is necessary to get him out of your life.
I know how easy it is to take protective measures for other people (you going a legal route because he’s harrassing your therapist), but you have to do it for you too.
This caused the following thought process in my dusty brain:
Wait… ummm… I’m not worth it?
Oh crap, she’s right! I didn’t think I was worth going through all the red-tape to better protect myself!
But, I’m not worth it?
Hah! Oh, hell yeah!!! I am so worth it! I am worth it and then some!!!! 😀 It’s time to show me some love!
So, as an early Valentine’s Day gift to myself, I am reminding myself that I am so worth it. I am worth protection. I am worth respect. I am worth going the extra mile. I deserve to feel safe!! That, and I really like chysanthemums, so I have posted a neat pic I found of them above. Teee heeeee….
I don’t know how many times I have had to rediscover my short-changing myself and not feeling like I was worth it, but at least each time it has gotten much easier to bring myself back to the idea that I am SO AMAZINGLY WORTH IT. Thank goodness I have learned to be patient with myself and the multiple itterations it takes a human brain to learn most things.
Now to consider things I didn’t think I was worth considering before, because I was not worth the trouble. I think it’s time for loud music and housecleaning. I do some of my best thinking when I’m cleaning out litter boxes or singing to the dirty dishes….
Thank you welshwmn3!!!! I will prolly come back and update this post as I think on this more… I just wanted to get the self-love train rolling. 😉
–AngryGrayRainbows
Angry Gray Rainbows 
AngryGreyRainbows: I’m happy I was able to help you a little. It’s obvious that you already knew this, just needed a little nudge to remember it. 🙂
I know it’s not going to be easy to navigate the legal system. Sometimes I think they set it up to protect the perpetrators rather than to help those who really need the help, but in the end, it’s something that will be well worth you doing.
If you ever need a sympathetic ear, email me (EMAIL ADD. EDITTED OUT FOR PRIVACY BY AGR – if you want me to put it back in – let me know. FA blogs get a lot of trolls and I’m assuming you don’t want to be troll bait 😉). I have a similar background as you, and if nothing else, I know that knowing you aren’t alone is always a good thing.
You really *are* worth it. And I’m glad my words helped you remember that. 🙂