I’m just not used to being happy. Thank you, depression. I like being happy… but it messes with my blog writing mojo. 😉 I’m going to have to learn to work with the happiness…
My best posts seem to spring out of my most difficult times. When things are going really good for me, I have a hard time knowing what to say. As you know, posts have been sparse. I’ve been waiting for me to either be less happy (less happy enough to post) or for inspiration to strike while I actually AM happy. Well, neither is happening and I am not giving up blogging, so I’m just going to have to learn to write when the climate in my mind is pleasant.
I’m realizing how much of my life I’ve spent not happy. Thank goodness for depression and ADD treatment. 😉 Weirdly, the ADD treatment seems to have a larger effect on my depression than the anti-depressants. My psychiatrist says that some percentage of depressed people are just like that and really do well once they finally find the right ADD meds. Funny, eh? It makes me wonder if my ADD (to some extent) has caused my depression…. who knows… but thank god for ritalin…
Oh yeah… and the white splotch in the picture above next to the word “happy” is totally my doing. Don’t blame the artist. Originally it said “be happy!”… which just bugs me, but I still really like the pic. Command sentences involving emotions annoy me to no end, so I blotted out the “be.” 😉 I think the pic is still awesome even with the big white blotch. 😀
–AngryGrayRainbows
Angry Gray Rainbows 
Well, one of the effects of the ADD drugs is to let you focus and get things done. When I’m getting stuff done, I feel good; so it makes a lot of sense to me that ADD drugs would help!
Like the pic, wouldn’t have noticed the blotch without the mention!
well, a blog should be for you first. write when you want to and about what you want to. i’m glad to hear you are happy, makes for a great post 🙂
It’s the opposite for me. When I’m in a bad mood, I tend to have things I want to write aboout, but I can’t organize my thoughts as well as I can when I’m happy, so I just don’t write when I’m upset.
This is interesting. I found that I was feeling down and sort of vaguely angry a lot of the time. I was also feeling stressed that I didn’t seem to be able to think of something to post about on my blogs. When I let go of the feeling that I “should” post more, and just started spending less time online, my mood improved greatly. After all, it is summer in Maine, and being indoors is a waste. A reverse causality from yours. Also, I can’t read anymore about health care reform or my head is going to explode.
I have sometimes felt, when talking to long-distance friends, that I am dull when I am happy. Our most intense conversations come from relationship troubles. Who cares? I’ll take dull and happy, every time.
I have found that when I am passionate about something, I can write about it effortlessly. I have been working very hard at finding ways to be passionate about positive, exciting things in y life. Having spent many many years in depression, it has been a slow and steady process. Finding the Fat Acceptance Community has been a great boost to my inner sense of well being as I transform away from all the ill effects of Fat Hatred and discrimination and point my attention to all of my own personal awesome.
I spent my entire adult like buying into the Fat Hate and thinking I was the one who was bad and wrong. Claiming my right to be happy, to feel good, to let go of guilt and shame, is a process. Old patterns of thought are changeable. Being so passionate about making these changed helps.
Cheers,
Ivan
I have been depressed a large part of my life. I never enjoyed the pain but it was what I knew. I felt like without the depression there would be nothing left of me. The loss of depression is also something that I need to understand. I do want to be happy and like being happy but I don’t know if I fully trust it. I also thought without the depression I would be a smiling, uninteresting sap.
You should write when you feel good for yourself. There will always be avenues to explore. If you journal or use the blog as a journal, you will have a great way of examining yourself through different stages of happiness and unhappiness.