Thoughts and Happenings

I was thinking about leaving these things to the Open Thread tomorrow, but there is so much I want to write about that it deserves a post of its own. 

Re the pooping cat: This morning he managed to mess up the couch twice.  It looks like he has a tummy ache or something.  So, I started thinking about what might give my dear Timey a tummy ache and I may have realized that this may be my mistake causing this.  Time has heart disease and takes 30 mgs of CoQ10 once a day to help keep his heart as healthy as possible as well as atenolol (a prescription med that helps his heart function more normally).  I knew his bottle of CoQ10 was running out weeks ago and I also knew that finding his special small dose of 30 mgs is very hard to find, so I’ve been looking for quite a while.  It seems no one is selling the 30 mg pill anymore, so I got him the 50 mg pill and he’s been taking that for two weeks or so in the hopes that it wouldn’t make any difference to him.  Well, it may have been messing with his tummy.  He’s an emotional cat anyway and I wouldn’t doubt that some of his behavior has also been about my new job and another cat that has been trying to monopolize all my time, but the last two weeks has been VERY bad in terms of furniture “accidents.”  So, I called the vet to let her know what I just figured out and to get her advice.  Hopefully she will tell me that he just needs a break from CoQ10 and an eventual return to the smaller dose.  No one needs to tell me what a mistake I have made.  I won’t be messing even with supplment doses on my cats without doctor advice ever again.  I’m annoyed with myself, but on the other hand I’m proud that I’m willing to own my mistake and tell the vet, so that Time can get whatever medical care he needs due to my giving him a different CoQ10 dose.  Edited to add: The vet called and apparently CoQ10 has no overdose effect that she knows of.  Yay!  If Timey doesn’t feel better by next week, he will be checked for inflammatory bowel disease…

Today, I also spent a whole lot of money in implementing my vetrinarian’s advice in helping Time’s not using his litterbox problems.  I got another litterbox (so now that we have the recommended # of cats + 1 = # of litterboxes), Feliway calming cat hormone diffuser and I changed out all the litter in all the litterboxes so that the litter is all nice and fresh.  Time’s problems started before the CoQ10 incident, but I suspect the CoQ10 only excacerbated things by giving him tummy problems.  Wish us luck in helping Timey through his litterbox issues.  No matter what, he has a home with us.  It would just be nice if I wasn’t cleaning poo off the couch and/or bed almost daily. 

I joined Facebook.  My first impressions have been that Facebook is VERY WEIRD.  Hah.  I really don’t need to know what everyone is up to on their Farmville farms.  😛  On the other hand, it’s great to have access to my cousin’s pics of her babies and it’s been really interesting to see what the girls I went to gradeschool look like and are up to.  It makes me giggle a little that 95% of them are fat now, when through my whole childhood they told me that I was fat even when I wasn’t fat (but especially they made fun of me when I WAS fat… as sometimes I was).  I suppose it is kind of healing to see their smiling faces proudly looking out of their pictures even if they are fat, obese, morbidly obese or whatever.  No, not because I think fatness is some kind of just “punishment.”  I think it’s cool that these women seem to have accepted their bodies and aren’t ashamed of them even if they have gained a lot of weight over the years.  Fatness is no punishment.  It just is a neutral descriptor.  😉  I suppose the healing bit is that I see that these people have grown up and don’t seem to be the same judgemental, fat loathing tormentors that they used to be.  It is healing to see that things have probably changed a lot for the better….

I’ve been praying a lot.  Nope.  Still not religious, but wow… I’m finding the value in prayer.  And, I think I have figured out why I am liking prayer so much…  First, it can be used as positive visualization.  For example, if I’m asking in prayer for more compassion or patience, I also find myself visualizing myself being more compassionate or patient… and then shifting to that kind of thinking and/or behavior becomes far easier.  Second, the frame of prayer helps me focus on the visualizations that help and to feel like I’m not alone.  Prayer can be conversational, so it’s harder for my mind to change the subject.  It’s easier to focus on the good things I want to internalize and the prayers for compassion that I want to make for others.  Prayer for the non-religous… who knew?  Okay, prolly lots of people did, but I didn’t.  😛  It prolly also helps to feel heard in regards to my goals, concerns and whatnot.  Cuz religious or not, since I was a child, I have felt heard when praying.  Are there any other non-religious types out there who are finding value in prayer? 

I’m feeling less ADHD’d today and that is a good thing.  The last several days have been hugely frustrating. 

I suppose that is all the randomness I’ve got right now… 😉

–AngryGrayRainbows