Wow! I didn’t know it had been so long since we had been here. I hope everyone is doing well and that you’re treating yourself with the love and respect you deserve.
I’ve had my ups and downs but I would say I’m gaining on life a little more every day.
Where am I now? Well, I’m deep in my recovery from an eating disorder called compulsive overeating/binge eating. I’m also in recovery from another disorder called self-hate/self-loathing. The eating disorder and the self-hate disorder are so closely entwined that it’s impossible to differentiate between the two.
What am I doing to jump start my recovery? Well, there are several things.
Since my last posting I’ve started with a new therapist who has been lovely to work with. It’s well worth the two hour round trip I make to see her.
I’ve joined an EDA (Eating Disorders Anonymous) 12 step group that meets once a week. It’s been a nice experience but it’s not one of those things that I would miss if something happened to disband it (which will probably happen soon because there’s currently not enough attending the meetings).
I am keeping a personal blog as a journal and that is going great.
I went on a shopping trip and bought a few more comfortable fitting items. I refuse to wear ill fitting clothing any more.
I use daily affirmations.
I’m getting stronger and using my boundaries in a healthy way.
I’m practicing the guidelines of intuitive eating/demand feeding. My therapist has actually met Geneen Roth and has been to one of her seminars. We both have a huge admiration for Ms. Roth. I think this is probably the biggest baby step I’ve taken thus far. For so long (years) I talked the talk of IE but never really practiced it but now I’m walking the walk too! I’ve had some eye opening experiences with it….like, I’m not hungry the minute my foot hits the floor to get out of bed first thing in the morning. Who knew?
My hope is that I’ll be here more often. Six months is quite a while to be gone. Take care everyone and love yourself!
~sas
Angry Gray Rainbows 
Glad to hear you’re doing better! 😀
Thanks crookedfinger!
It’s good to see you back! You have no idea how I’ve missed you and this blog.
I’m glad to know that you’re doing better. As much as I’ve missed you, it’s wonderful that you’ve been doing so much for yourself. Keep taking care of you, and update us as you can.
Aww, thanks Twistie. I’m glad to be back. I’ve missed you guys too.
Interesting. My therapist recommended reading Geneen Roth too. I’ll have to get it out of the library if they have it, or the bookstore if not.
Heather~
Maybe you could check out her blog before you buy a book. There are so many wonderful things written by her but my favorites are her earlier publications.
I never was good at doing the “link” thing but it takes you there nonetheless. tee hee
I am so glad to see you back. I recently read Roth’s book, Women, Food and God and it was quite good. I have been trying to follow her eating guidelines as well.
Did I say I am glad you are back?